bakit ganun? ang lungkot lungkot ng buhay. i feel so ugly. i feel so useless. i feel very much unlikeable. why??? can't i ever be good enough for you? im so near, just under your nose!
superficiality sucks. why are most men like that? why are YOU like that? i've found out to myself that there's no point in questioning, after all, i have accepted him wholly, his flaws and strengths combined. but there's nothing wrong with asking WHY, right?
i want to feel loved by him. but how can i control things that are way beyond my control? i've never even had a second of his attention and still i keep on rambling to myself.
eto naman kasi akong si gaga, umaasa na SOMEDAY, baka lang, magustuhan niya ako. i've made a fool out of myself, dreaming up for things that are so obviously impossible. i come to realize im the one to blame. he never showed me any signs of interest, i just thought, or maybe assumed, that he did. it was my fault to fantasize that after telling him how i feel for him, things would be up, romantically, for the both of us. NINCOMPOOP! just the exact word to describe myself. a fool. a moron. an idiot. a born LOSER. after keeping my hopes up in the skies for him, i fall onto the thick slick mud, face first, every organ in my anatomy scattered all over the ground. i'm so stupid.
ahh!! why did i believe what paulo coelho said in his book? a reason why i had my hopes up was because 'By The River Piedra..' said that if you really LOVE, you never lose hope. but now it seems i should not believe everything i read. it only applies to selected people. imbecile aisha thought she was one of them. poor me. now i have to find a way to pick myself up again. help.
now im feeling these songs. :(
OUT OF REACH By GabrielleKnew the signs
Wasn't right
I was stupid for a while
Swept away by you
And now I feel like a fool
So confused, my heart's bruised
Was I ever loved by you?Out of reach, so far
I never had your heart
Out of reach, couldn't see
We were never meant to be
Catch myself from despair
I could drown if I stay here
Keeping busy every day
I know I will be OKBut I was
So confused, my heart's bruised
Was I ever loved by you?
Out of reach, so far
I never had your heart
Out of reach, couldn't see
We were never meant to be
So much hurt, so much pain
Takes a while to regain what is lost inside
And I hope that in time, you'll be out of my mind
And I'll be over youBut now I'm
So confused, my heart's bruised
Was I ever loved by you?
Out of reach, so far
I never had your heart
Out of reach, couldn't see
We were never meant to be
Out of reach, so far
I never had your heart
In my reach, I can see
There's a life out there for me
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BROKEN SONNET By HaleAnd now I concede on the night of this 15th song
Of melancholy, of melancholy
And now I will admit in this 4th line
That I LOVE YOU, I LOVE YOU.
I don’t care what they sayI don’t care what they do
‘Cause tonight I’ll leave my fears behind
‘Cause tonight I’ll be right at your side.
Lie down right next to me
Lie down right next to me
And I will never let go
Will never let go.The clock on the TV says 8:39 PM
It’s the same, it’s the same
And in this next line I’ll say it all over again
That I love you, I love you.
I don’t care what they say
I don’t care what they do
‘Cause tonight I’ll leave my fears behind
‘Cause tonight I’ll be right at your side.
Lie down right next to me
Lie down right next to me
And I will never let go
Will never let go.
I’ll leave my fears behind
‘Cause tonight I’ll be right at your side.
Lie down right next to me
Lie down right next to me
And I will never let go
Will never let go.
But still I see the tears from your eyes
Maybe I’m just not the one for you...
snoozed at5/10/2005 09:10:00 AM .