last monday i got my advisory marks. i got a fucking F in math (since these are MY thoughts, why censor it?). that grade was only based on the first long test, which i failed. but for that one i got an alibi. my stupid professor didn't check the back of my paper, because she said it's her rule that we shouldnt put answers at the back our papers, just unluckily for me, i didn't hear her say that. more than half the weight of the scores was there, and im pretty sure i got most of my answers right. curse her.
..but just last night, i took my math midterm exam. after all the hardwork, pagsusunog ng kilay, pagkakapal ng mukha na magpaturo kay ate pepel ng math, it didn't pay off. God had forsaken me. midterms was just hell. every friggin principle in math combined in all problems. i didn't finish answering them! i'll be lucky if i get a 70/200. i've tried so HARD! i really did.. maybe im really bobo.. i dunno.. now i know how joy felt when she failed her math.. it's really frustrating, getting caught up in all these nonsense numbers, but u just can do nothing about it.
the only nice things that happened to me yesterday were that i was able to eat PLENTY of food, and i was able to pray, by ej's leading. we had a practice yesterday for the pre-con on sunday that's gonna be held here in school. well, it was SUPPOSED to be a practiceÜ (-->woah! that's the first smiley i typed in this entry!) we started with worship-- i just surrendered everything to Him. bahala na si God sakin. it was really wrong for me to say He had forsaken me-- i know He hadnt, and He would NEVER. i just got carried away by my emotions. challenge lang to. i can do this. as long as God is with me, along with my family, and my YFC friends.
another problem. with a grade of F, im afraid my parents wouldnt allow me to attend YFC gatherings for a while. while in the jeepney last night, i thought of renting a dorm near here in school so that i could really concentrate on my studies during weekdays, and i'll go home on weekends to see my family and attend YFC. that's what i was planning. but it's still up to my parents.. renting a dormitory is really costly..
bottom line: COLLEGE SUCKS.
snoozed at1/26/2005 09:04:00 AM .